I’m in a really shitty place right now and I always think that sharing helps. One of the great things I love about Tumblr is that my blog is like 98% anonymous. None of my friends from school follow me or anything so I can post what I want and get things off my chest. Anyway so my girlfriend is going to leave me and I can’t handle it. I simply can’t handle it and now I feel like just ending it all. I don’t mean to be overdramatic, i’ll be here tomorrow - Forever Evil 7 and DC’s Trinity movie are certainly worth sticking around for! My girlfriend though is just the best, she’s so beautiful and funny and i’ve opened up to her about so much I just can’t bare the thought of her not being part of my life. She has her problems as well mind you, she’s a tad suicidal and she talks to her therapist about me. She doens’t get along with her mum and yet she alwas takes her advice. This upset me a lot, her therapist has been essentially telling her to break up with me, her mum tells her regualrly that things simply don’t work the second time round. we broke up for a bit a few months back but when we got back together everything was better and I was loving every moment and now I am simply angry. I am just filled with this horrific rage that I managed to screw it up with her. If i’m honest I’ve never liked her mum and I certainly don’t owe that bitch therapist any favours. I don’t feel like eating or doing anything because all I think about is her and how there’s no way my life could go on without her being a part of it and it really fucking sucks. Whenever I looked to the future it had her in it so now when I think about it all I just can’t imagine it without her. When you let someone into your life as much as I did with her, which was more than anyone and then you are helpless to watch them walk away like she is it’s just devastating. I don’t ever want to open up to anyone again.. when the one person I did let in turns around and leaves it feels like a part of me has left with her and that’s a bit much to take in right now. I think i’m going to have the day off school tomorrow and just get on with work, if I can throw myself into that then at least I might get some good exam results, even if I end up losing her. Thank you for being here and allowing me to share this, if anyone ever wants any help I check Tumblr plenty.